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My soul yearns even faints for the love of a Father who won't leave, cause He yearns even faints for the love of a child like me. And He calls me His son, and He shakes my young soul. To his home I will run; yes His home is my goal. Cause it's better that way, life's a burden alone. Just give me one day in my Fathers warm home...... i am dancing into His home; i can't help but swing wide these doors.



This has to be by far one of my most favorite worship songs to play. Even on stage, i can't even get through half of it without losing it. It's a real struggle at times to even get the words out. For as long as i could remember this was the cry of my heart. Unlike most kids, i grew up without a dad. i never knew what it was to be chased around the house, tickled till i turned blue in the face. i never knew what it was to feel the warm embrace of a father. i never knew what it was to have a male figure in my life that i could look up to.



i remember as a kid going to places with my friends and their families. Oh how i jealously longed for the love of a father. Seeing their dad's love for them killed me inside; made me sick to the core. How angry i was at God. i locked Him out of my heart for good(at least i thought i did).



It wasn't till recently that i was playing this song alone in my room. Half way through the chorus, i began to tremble. The words grew heavier and heavier as my mouth could no longer push them out. i shortly realized that i was on the floor laughing. i thought surely I've gone mad but this was different. This love, this peace, this joy began to fill the room. Before i knew it i was drowning in it. this joy began to burst its way into the deepest parts of who i was.



Never have i experienced the freedom i did in that exact moment. i received a glimpse of paradise. He bathed me in light. He restored my broken smile. For once, i experienced the love of a Father. For my soul yearns even faints for the love of a Father who won't leave, cause He yearns even faints for the love of a child like me. And you wanna know what He told me?? That i was His child in whom He was well pleased in. That from that day on, I'd be forever dancing in His house. And for once I knew... I knew what it meant to be loved by a father; by my Father...