desperation

‎"i refuse to give a partial sacrifice. if i give to you my love, i must also give my life."
- Kate Hurley

If I give to you my love, I must also give my life… the significance of this statement is beyond my capacity to understand; it is beyond my capacity to give. Sometimes I just want to run away from Him. So many think I have it together. The thought of running back into the world is a constant thorn in my flesh. I fucking hate it. So many want a piece, so many thirst, but few are willing to give it up their stake in the world.

How far will I go? How hard will I push? Just one glimpse, just one taste, just one crumb from His table is all I need. Lord help me.

I’m tired of not hearing your voice. This desperation has overtaken my longing. I can’t even function anymore. I’m like a crack head in need of another fix. I need you. I refuse to give a partial sacrifice. If I give to you my love, I must also give my life.